A little bit about me…
Hey ya’ll! My name is Amanda. First, I would like to thank you for taking the time out of your busy day to visit my page! If you need a little inspiration or feel like your world is crumbling right in front of you, my blog is just for you!
I have 3 perfect children, two girls and one little prince. You will hear a lot about them, they make this momma melt, daily. I have the best husband a girl could ask for. He knows me better than I know myself. I am so thankful to have a man stand by me. I will be the first to admit, I can be an emotional rollercoaster at times. I am extremely blessed.
From grief to grace, God saved me. He loved me and forgave me during the darkest time of my life. Each bad decision I made had a consequence. Those consequences snowballed right in front of me and the next thing I knew I was about to lose my daughter in a custody battle. My world continued to crumble. Eventually I became hopeless, numb, and on a path of self destruction. I will FOREVER be thankful for those who led me to Christ. Death, depression, anxiety, and fear consumed my life. I began to let that define who I was.
I hope to inspire you or someone you know by sharing my story. I am living proof that faith can get you through the toughest battles. I was broken. I was lost. And I lived in fear, every single day. If you know this feeling, I promise you are not alone.
We do not live in a mansion nor do we drive Bentleys. We are very fortunate to live comfortable lives. It hasn’t always been this way. There is no reason to sugar coat things, we all have problems. I am open to discussing mine because they have shaped who I am and who I have become. I have struggled, my marriage has struggled, and my life has been one hell of a roller coaster at times. But I have made it! And so can you.
Before I met my husband in December of 2014 (how we met is a story of it’s own), I had already experienced more than most people do in a lifetime, as far as loss is concerned. By loss, I mean death. I lost my mom in 2010, two weeks after I found out I was pregnant with my first little girl. She intentionally overdosed. My little brother passed away in 2013. That day my entire world shattered right in front of me. Two of the most important people in my world, were gone, in the blink of an eye. I later lost my daddy in 2015. I know, my life has been far from a fairy tale, but I am who I am because of what I have experienced. I am only 28 years old. Loss is just a small piece to my scattered puzzle. Then there’s the custody battle that about made me half crazy. Not to mention the complete and utter failure the justice system was for my daughter. However, that battle and that failure brought me to my knees, literally. What God has done in my life, is almost unbelievable and is a huge part of why my story is even worth reading. I used to think I was fearless before I experienced loss. Then I became fearful. Fear of what or who I would lose next. Why God chose to keep taking the people I love from me blew my mind. And made me very angry. I didn’t get it at all. I didn’t get God, I didn’t get faith, I didn’t get life. I began to live day to day. All my passions, all my dreams, all of who I was disappeared into a fog. I lived in that fog from 2013 to 2016. 3 years of living every single day in fear.
There is some sunshine in all of my rain, I promise! As I sit here and type this today, I can’t tell you that I am on the other side of it all. I am a work in progress. I am finally seeing what settling into grace looks like and feels like. I am living proof that God can turn your life around. I am a walking mess some days. But I am God’s mess. I wouldn’t be where I am today without my faith, my hardships, my bad decisions, and my broken heart that I so desperately want to heal. I can wake up each day knowing that no matter what happens, no matter what is thrown my way, God will guide me through it. I don’t have to face this world alone anymore.
If one single aspect of my life can make a difference in yours, then I know this blog was the right choice. We can walk together in this crazy life. I would love to hear your story. This isn’t just about me, it’s about you too.